Entry 76: Read January 29

September 4

I have to get out of here and figure it out. I'm now in a place where my life should feel together but instead it feels like it's falling apart.

I'm 28 and I now have my MBA. I've got a great job at a firm I love. The possibilities seem endless but all I can think about is what decision to make and who to choose and how to truly be happy. How can everything be so complicated? Someday I'll be a grown up and this will all seem so silly I hope.

I'm going to take a much overdue vacation and visit Jenna in Denver. I haven't seen her since her wedding which seems so long ago. The last time I saw her I hadn't met Mike and had a dead end job at the bank. I remember being so jealous that she was marrying Thomas and moving across the country and her life was about to open up. Now I'm at that place where life is about to seriously change. I just hope for the better.

Maybe a roadtrip is just what I need to clear my head. Getting away from it all certainly can't hurt. I've warned Jenna I'm working on not being crazy and she says she's up for the challenge. We'll see about that.

I feel strangely calm though. Maybe it's just knowing I get to take a break from my life. Who knows. It's been such a long time since I've done anything nice for myself. I'm going to relax and go shopping and get caught up with her and it's going to be great!

I hope it's not already cold there. I've never been to Colorado before but I think it snows a lot. I always see that on the news. I hope I fit in okay with all those athletic people. I bet they're everywhere. Jenna loves it so I hope I do to since it'll be home for the next week.

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