December 4
I'm all out of good pens I guess since this is the THIRD one I've tried to use. So annoying!!!
I think my internship is actually going to become a real job! I love the firm I'm at the work can sometimes be kind of boring but the people are cool and overall the work isn't bad. I just finished preparing reports for the auditors for the giant investor meeting to close this years fiscal. I wish it hadn't been the week before finals because I'm exhausted and can't afford to screw anything up right now. I should get all A's except for the one C. In Stats we'll see.
I'm about to take my CFA level one exam. My supervisor at the firm suggested it. He thinks it'll give me a leg up or something. I won't get the results until January which sucks since most people don't pass their first time! It was super expensive too like an extra $300 for one book and like $600 for the books and test. But it'll be worth it because for some finance firms it's better than having your MBA. I think after graduating they'll probably offer me a job here which will be an awesome place to start out. And then with my Masters and CFA I can go almost anywhere! Mybe I'll move to New York. I don't know if I'm glamorous enough for that. I can try. I'm going to bed. I can barely write. I wonder if I'll even be able to read this tomorrow. Am I tired all the time?
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November 28
Putting your hand through a glass table is a bad idea. I don't know where the anger came from or maybe I thought I wouldn't actually be able to do it. I don't really know. Maybe I was having an out of body experience? I don't remember any of it really until I was in the emergency room getting stiched up and the girl asked me how I'd cut up my hand. I didn't know what to say.
Alex says one minute I was sitting there quietly and the next I was bleeding. I'm going to blame the wine. Either that or I've totally lost it. I really hope it was the wine.
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November 9
I hate this time of year. Did I always? I can't remember. It's cold outside and there's more of that white stuff that is so pretty at first and then makes everything this really gross brown. It's gray outside and I think I'm drinking more than I used to. There are holidays coming and celebrations of togetherness always just seem to make me feel more lonely.
My brother has a girlfriend. Really? Really. She's coming home with him for Thanksgiving. Brave girl. Especially now that there's going to be a wedding. It's all Mama Sally can talk about. She actually said "I'd like for you to call me Mama Sally. Not that I'm trying to replace your mother but we're family now." It made me want to throw up actually.
I'm trying to be a good "sport" since dad still calls me that but it's harder than it looks. She babytalks less thank God!
I feel like an alien looking in on all of this. I miss being a part of the action.
I miss Mike.
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