May 15
I am the Uno Master!
My mpm and I hosted Mother's Day brunch for Jake and his mom. It was awesome! He and I cooked and our moms hit it off and seemed to like each other. Jake and his mom have been a little on the outs lately and it was good to see them both get along and have fun.
My mom is crazy of course and after another mimosa she decided a challenge was in order and started halling the games out of the closet. This idea was rather short lived since I kicked ass at Yatzee and then at Uno. My mom should really know better by now.
It was a pretty relaxing thing which is wierd since a guy I've known for like 2 months was meeting my mom and I was meeting his and our moms were meeting each other and that's just wierd. It's the new me! I'm trying not to think everything to death and have more fun. So far it's working. I still hate therapy but it seems like it's working so at least Dad's getting his money's worth.
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April 22
I really am in awe with those people who make it look so easy to stay friends with your ex. And it's not that it's hard even because they know you really well and you have all these memories and inside jokes and stuff. But it's awkward because you have to think through everything before you say it.
Don't talk to much about the new boyfriend. Check.
Don't ask too many prying questions about his dating life. Check.
Don't forget to ask about his family. Check.
Don't talk too much about yours. Check.
Stick to surface topics like work, school, the news, but don't talk too much about the war and things you're both afraid of because if you do you might end up talking more about your relationship and what went wrong or what might have been. Stick to the surface topics but say just enough so that the conversation doesn't feel surface. This is how we survived lunch.
Screw finance, maybe I should just write a book called, "How To Make Nice With Your Ex (Who You Cheated On)". Yeah!
Bruce and Demi got nothing on me and Mike. We're pros at this now!
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April 14
Well it was almost a month of bliss.
I finally called Mike back today. He accused me of avoiding him which is true. I was. I don't know what to say to him anymore. I didn't want to tell him about Jake or hear about his dating life.
But I couldn't stop myself from saying yes to the invitation for lunch. In a phone call I can avoid all the serious subjects and just glaze over things but in real life? We're having lunch next week. In real life.
This oughtta be interesting.
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March 26
I've spent almost every day with him. He picked me up from class with coffee and from my internship with dinner at ten o'clock at night.
I have no idea what's happening here. I'm thinking of just trying to enjoy the ride.
Can I ever do that?
I'm not thinking I'm just doing. So far so good.
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March 18
I had a date! Of course I don't know if it really counts since St. Pat's is a holiday which is all about drinking as much as you can and trying not to throw up.
But I had a really good time and realized it's been way to long since I let myself have any fun. It's allright to punish yourself so long as the punishment fits the crime and you know when to stop.
That's one of those things I'm not very good at. I never know when to stop apologizing or feeling sorry for myself or punishing or any of that.
But last night I got a glimpse of a girl I sometimes am. And I liked it. We danced, we drank, we did carbombs and somewhere along the way I remembered that this is what your twenties are supposed to be like. So embrace the fun and be the person who can change my life. Right?
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