July 4!
Woo One year! He's got something planned and I love that he still makes me a big deal!
Katie says I have to give her full credit for her accidental match making skills! I haven't seen her since my birthday. I'd waited my whole life for that surprise party and it was totally worth the wait!!!
I should put one of the pictures in here but I keep forgetting. It's funny that this book sits on my bedside table but I don't seem to ever write in it.
Then again I think about all the books I have on my bedside table too and laugh at myself.
Oh! I'm going back to school in the fall. This whole two income thing is pretty handy!
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12/16
I must be new to that whole making up your mind thing.
February 2
This whole groundhog thing is pretty silly. Winter is winter and lasts as long as it feels like if he sees his shadow or not.
So far so good on planet living with someone. Mike's lived with someone before but I haven't really. Justin and I may have been joined at the hip for years, but we still kept separate places.
I don't know how I'm doing. He says I'm not crazy which is apparently and improvement from the last girl but I don't know how I measure up really. I think I thought I'd live with someone I knew I'd marry.
Not that I wouldn't marry Mike. I think I would. I mean if I was ready for that.
Are you ever ready? Maybe not. For living with someone or for marrying them. I know I'm supposed to want it but really I just want to learn to live with someone first before I have to think about the rest of it.
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December 15
Moving day. I don't really want to do this. I don't want to have to do this. I picked the place that made me less crazy.
What if I made the wrong choice?
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December 6
I don't want to be a grownup. I think only 7 year olds really want to be grown ups but I'd trade places with one. I'm trying to remember being seven and what you do when your best friend of years won't talk to you except in notes. I'm trying to remember to avoid someone. Trying to remember ever feeling guilty for not actually feeling guilty. I miss Kim because I miss having that person I tell everything to but I don't miss the fact that she never really cared or just repeated it to others. When I was seven I don't think I knew what being fake felt like.
Why waste your time pretending?
Especially when you can obsess about whether or not to move in with your boyfriend. You can't fake that. I don't remember ever feeling like this.
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December 3
I have no idea what that says. I mean and idea but that's it. I don't know when my life became one of the movies I'm so fond of but I kind of wish it would go back to being boring. I've been staying with Mike and my mom and both have said I can move in. I don't know which decision to make.
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